求你们不要再逼我了
求你们只是给我一个空间不可以吗？
真的只是给我在我的房间里面难道这样都不可以吗？
我要的真的不多啊
我不喜欢你们
但是我从来没有因此而伤害你们
给我一个人就够了
我们井水不犯河水难道还不行吗
求你们了 求你们了
Tuesday, 28 May 2013
Monday, 27 May 2013
Back Off!
What the heck are you talking bout me?! Please back off.
Okay, the first thing i wanna say bout this blog is what I actually used for scolding or give a vent whatever you think bout it. It's stupid to record things like this i know, but it's just my right to do what i want to write. It's a way to reduce my pressure...
And so, today was the 4th day of my hols, and I want to make something CLEAR.
1. I'm not a jerk. I am not studying everyday but i'm doing what I know and what I SHALL do.
2. You did not even paid attention on me and why shall I care bout your feelings? OK, a grown-up will say this is what a naive will do. But I cared. You were having an affair with some guys out there till now you don't know i know bout that.
3. I know you're sad. I was painful to see you sad too. but i can't help myself only letting more anger approach me.
4. and when time passes, I was too busy on my school work and stuff, so i gradually become cold-hearted. i doesn't want to care more bout family. NEVER. it's a waste of my time.
5. and i felt so happy and relieved when i realized I actually did this.
6. I am sure on what I want to do for my OWN future, there's NO WAY you can stop me like how you did to my brother. he sucks now in his chemistry and are you happy to see that?!!! HOLY NOT. I swear you were desperate and you even scolded me about not studying. (why does brother always link to me?
I really hate that.
7. whatever it is, thank you so much for giving birth to me and bred me. Thank you so much, i'm grateful for this.
8. however, i still wanna clarify that I hated you so much. both of you are DAMN annoying as you get older.
I swear i love you very much when both of you were young.
9. It's right to blame you all for leaving a family like this to me. You gave me a unhappy life. You hate each other so why do you give birth to me? Having sex is fun right? why don't you give birth to a herd of them?!!!
stupid.
10. I really think of running away from home for many many times since you two started quarreling. It's such a fool to see all this none of my business thingies till I grown this big.
11. Sorry i have to say, i will decide my future myself. It's my right to get my money for my higher education. Who ask you want to born me?!? if you don't have the effort to raise me, why don't you just KILL me when i was young?
12. I am who I am and i'll do what I like. Thank you so much for being my dad and mum before. You were and you will always be, but I will hate you till you change your stupid attitude.
13. Go ahead to Italy, I'm not envy bout that anyway, and don't take my education fees for the Perth trip this year end. Thank you so much always promising something that you won't do. You know what, the thing i hate most is that you give me hope and you destroyed it yourself. straight before my eyes.
so.. back off! don't come to my life. don't ever try to disturb nor control it. stupid!!!!
Okay, the first thing i wanna say bout this blog is what I actually used for scolding or give a vent whatever you think bout it. It's stupid to record things like this i know, but it's just my right to do what i want to write. It's a way to reduce my pressure...
And so, today was the 4th day of my hols, and I want to make something CLEAR.
1. I'm not a jerk. I am not studying everyday but i'm doing what I know and what I SHALL do.
2. You did not even paid attention on me and why shall I care bout your feelings? OK, a grown-up will say this is what a naive will do. But I cared. You were having an affair with some guys out there till now you don't know i know bout that.
3. I know you're sad. I was painful to see you sad too. but i can't help myself only letting more anger approach me.
4. and when time passes, I was too busy on my school work and stuff, so i gradually become cold-hearted. i doesn't want to care more bout family. NEVER. it's a waste of my time.
5. and i felt so happy and relieved when i realized I actually did this.
6. I am sure on what I want to do for my OWN future, there's NO WAY you can stop me like how you did to my brother. he sucks now in his chemistry and are you happy to see that?!!! HOLY NOT. I swear you were desperate and you even scolded me about not studying. (why does brother always link to me?
I really hate that.
7. whatever it is, thank you so much for giving birth to me and bred me. Thank you so much, i'm grateful for this.
8. however, i still wanna clarify that I hated you so much. both of you are DAMN annoying as you get older.
I swear i love you very much when both of you were young.
9. It's right to blame you all for leaving a family like this to me. You gave me a unhappy life. You hate each other so why do you give birth to me? Having sex is fun right? why don't you give birth to a herd of them?!!!
stupid.
10. I really think of running away from home for many many times since you two started quarreling. It's such a fool to see all this none of my business thingies till I grown this big.
11. Sorry i have to say, i will decide my future myself. It's my right to get my money for my higher education. Who ask you want to born me?!? if you don't have the effort to raise me, why don't you just KILL me when i was young?
12. I am who I am and i'll do what I like. Thank you so much for being my dad and mum before. You were and you will always be, but I will hate you till you change your stupid attitude.
13. Go ahead to Italy, I'm not envy bout that anyway, and don't take my education fees for the Perth trip this year end. Thank you so much always promising something that you won't do. You know what, the thing i hate most is that you give me hope and you destroyed it yourself. straight before my eyes.
so.. back off! don't come to my life. don't ever try to disturb nor control it. stupid!!!!
Saturday, 9 March 2013
逃！
2月20日！！！还有8天就是3月。3月开始还有10个月就是2014年！到时候我就可以离开！！那时候我已经有足够的资格离开。我再也不会回来这个地方。
我再也不认娘！
她说等哥哥回去，她就赶我和妹妹走~
好啊！
她有种，她做得出。我就走。
我走。
我不会有这个妈妈!!!! 就这么简单！
放屁啦！！！谁叫你得空得空跑去跟一个你不爱的人做做做！！生我出来喂狗的啊？！
还说我不小心出来的，那就打掉啦！
留着我这个你所谓的孽种在这里有用？！！
神经=3=
你曾经养我的事情就这件事一笔勾销！我再也不会烦你，你就过你和你的哈利的二人世界吧~!
去吧~~~！！
我会配合你的，滚远点！！！
以后跟你没有关系~~~XD
我一辈子幸福！！
我再也不认娘！
她说等哥哥回去，她就赶我和妹妹走~
好啊！
她有种，她做得出。我就走。
我走。
我不会有这个妈妈!!!! 就这么简单！
放屁啦！！！谁叫你得空得空跑去跟一个你不爱的人做做做！！生我出来喂狗的啊？！
还说我不小心出来的，那就打掉啦！
留着我这个你所谓的孽种在这里有用？！！
神经=3=
你曾经养我的事情就这件事一笔勾销！我再也不会烦你，你就过你和你的哈利的二人世界吧~!
去吧~~~！！
我会配合你的，滚远点！！！
以后跟你没有关系~~~XD
我一辈子幸福！！
=3=
Gosh! I really don't know why you want to force me to study those courses that I don't want! Nursing?!! What!!!!! You really don't understand me!!!!
Don't you know how bad and regretted I am for choosing science stream?!!! SHIT!!
I suffered for 3 years and you want me to study SCIENCE again!!!!???!!!!!!
NEVER!!
NEVER WILL I SURRENDER TO YOUR WORDS! I'm not a FOOL!!
Leaving my life to hell again?!! DEFINITELY NOOOOOOO!!!!!
How can I RUINED my happiness with my OWN HANDS? Do you think I'm NUTS to do this?!!!
=3=
I won't!
Never!!
No matter what happens, i'll just run away from home! And in to my DREAMS.
I'm heading for Film!!
I don't care.
I know what I want and what I like!!!
$$ problem?
I don't know....
just let it be. not enough, work for it.
then study again. then work.
that's how i'll do!!
that is it. my final word.
i'll SUCCEED and won't come back.
So LONG!! FAREWELL!!!
NEVER wanted to see you in my life anymore!!!! =3=
Don't you know how bad and regretted I am for choosing science stream?!!! SHIT!!
I suffered for 3 years and you want me to study SCIENCE again!!!!???!!!!!!
NEVER!!
NEVER WILL I SURRENDER TO YOUR WORDS! I'm not a FOOL!!
Leaving my life to hell again?!! DEFINITELY NOOOOOOO!!!!!
How can I RUINED my happiness with my OWN HANDS? Do you think I'm NUTS to do this?!!!
=3=
I won't!
Never!!
No matter what happens, i'll just run away from home! And in to my DREAMS.
I'm heading for Film!!
I don't care.
I know what I want and what I like!!!
$$ problem?
I don't know....
just let it be. not enough, work for it.
then study again. then work.
that's how i'll do!!
that is it. my final word.
i'll SUCCEED and won't come back.
So LONG!! FAREWELL!!!
NEVER wanted to see you in my life anymore!!!! =3=
Saturday, 9 February 2013
What a Joke?!
My mum hate me is an Indisputable fact.
She Love my brother so much.
But HATE me?
I couldn't understand.
I thought the parents will never HATE their children, but only got angry with them.
However, my MUM did.
She hates me.
She hates me like hell.
She doesn't even let me talk infront of the family.
She said I don't have the right.
Just because I went out for a gathering & reunion dinner with my seniors who came back from overseas.
In contrast, my brother was helping the housework.
HOWEVER again,
she did not realised how much I have done when Brother was overseas too.
I did all the chores, without even a single grumble.
See, this is a piece of JOKE.
I must be strong, not to listen to all this again.
I must love myself more.
And be what I want to be.
She Love my brother so much.
But HATE me?
I couldn't understand.
I thought the parents will never HATE their children, but only got angry with them.
However, my MUM did.
She hates me.
She hates me like hell.
She doesn't even let me talk infront of the family.
She said I don't have the right.
Just because I went out for a gathering & reunion dinner with my seniors who came back from overseas.
In contrast, my brother was helping the housework.
HOWEVER again,
she did not realised how much I have done when Brother was overseas too.
I did all the chores, without even a single grumble.
See, this is a piece of JOKE.
I must be strong, not to listen to all this again.
I must love myself more.
And be what I want to be.
Thursday, 31 January 2013
She's nut
O Gosh! It's such a pity thing that i'm her daughter.
SHE IS REALLY NUTS.
Don't wanna explained what happen anymore.
I know my brother is currently studying Dentistry~ but whatever courses is it, it's his own future.
His own life.
I am MYSELF. I doesn't need to be so professional, Okay?
It doesn't matter what I study. My life will depends on MYSELF. For what i choose, what i like and how i would want to live. IT's NONE of YOUR Business.
You see, you don't live my life for me.
That's the point.
Even though I face crisis, problems, you are not going to solve it for me, aren't you?
IT will be ME, MYSELF. I may be accompanied by someone, perhaps other family members, but in the end I will still have to face it myself. Because i'm living my own life.
IT'S NOT YOURS!!!!!!!!
I don't need your PRAISE.
I don't really understand why you and dad choose to give birth to me, when i'm just an accident.
And now YOU HATE me.
It's so funny~! I can't believe it =3=
I know brother is very TALENTED, EXCELLENT to both of you. He is your proud. Yeah, indeed he is, but the point is, I still have to find my own career, finish my own things, and live MY life.
My life, may be complicated, may be fulfilled with Sad, troublesome and etc.
SO WHAT? Who Cares?!!!
All i have to do is to look after myself, my darling little sis and repay our DAD and You.
Yes, I have to repay for this is a job as a child of someone's family.
Still, seriously I wanna tell you that is,
I really DISLIKE you as my MUM.
Shut up.
Don't think you know me.
Don't even bother about me when Brother is back.
I don't need you to pity me.
I'll be RESPONSIBLE to my own future.
Get lost from my FUTURE.
That's something that I myself will DECIDE.
=3= Such a NUT you are......
SHE IS REALLY NUTS.
Don't wanna explained what happen anymore.
I know my brother is currently studying Dentistry~ but whatever courses is it, it's his own future.
His own life.
I am MYSELF. I doesn't need to be so professional, Okay?
It doesn't matter what I study. My life will depends on MYSELF. For what i choose, what i like and how i would want to live. IT's NONE of YOUR Business.
You see, you don't live my life for me.
That's the point.
Even though I face crisis, problems, you are not going to solve it for me, aren't you?
IT will be ME, MYSELF. I may be accompanied by someone, perhaps other family members, but in the end I will still have to face it myself. Because i'm living my own life.
IT'S NOT YOURS!!!!!!!!
I don't need your PRAISE.
I don't really understand why you and dad choose to give birth to me, when i'm just an accident.
And now YOU HATE me.
It's so funny~! I can't believe it =3=
I know brother is very TALENTED, EXCELLENT to both of you. He is your proud. Yeah, indeed he is, but the point is, I still have to find my own career, finish my own things, and live MY life.
My life, may be complicated, may be fulfilled with Sad, troublesome and etc.
SO WHAT? Who Cares?!!!
All i have to do is to look after myself, my darling little sis and repay our DAD and You.
Yes, I have to repay for this is a job as a child of someone's family.
Still, seriously I wanna tell you that is,
I really DISLIKE you as my MUM.
Shut up.
Don't think you know me.
Don't even bother about me when Brother is back.
I don't need you to pity me.
I'll be RESPONSIBLE to my own future.
Get lost from my FUTURE.
That's something that I myself will DECIDE.
=3= Such a NUT you are......
Monday, 12 November 2012
NOT AWARE OF YOU
那天
你骗我
今天
你又骗我
为什么可以不在家过夜？
朋友请你吃夜宵？
哈哈哈哈~
那为什么要去订酒店房间
还要
1间、1晚=两个成年人
一看就知道是去做什么啦！！
哈哈哈哈哈哈~我是白痴吗？
去吧去吧
我不在乎了
不过今天的发现还真的很很很大的说~
那个男人来载你呢！！哇！！！
车~~~好~~~大~~~啊！！！
知道是有钱人啦XDD
我觉得你真的很差劲LOL
做人家婊子也要做到有模有样啊？
为什么可以总是被我发现？？
拜托！！
我不想看到这么恶心的东西*吐*
以后做事聪明一点
你一直以为你做事很谨慎很小心吗
哈哈哈哈~我早就知道啦XDDDD
我明白你要什么
我什么都明白的
GO AHEAD
我不在乎了
啦啦啦啦~~
明天
继续加油！！
我会努力做得更好一些XDD
高考成绩一出来
到时候我自己选国家啊
我自己选我的大学
不要你来打扰我YOU KNOW!
好 就这样！
我会再加油XDD
你骗我
今天
你又骗我
为什么可以不在家过夜？
朋友请你吃夜宵？
哈哈哈哈~
那为什么要去订酒店房间
还要
1间、1晚=两个成年人
一看就知道是去做什么啦！！
哈哈哈哈哈哈~我是白痴吗？
去吧去吧
我不在乎了
不过今天的发现还真的很很很大的说~
那个男人来载你呢！！哇！！！
车~~~好~~~大~~~啊！！！
知道是有钱人啦XDD
我觉得你真的很差劲LOL
做人家婊子也要做到有模有样啊？
为什么可以总是被我发现？？
拜托！！
我不想看到这么恶心的东西*吐*
以后做事聪明一点
你一直以为你做事很谨慎很小心吗
哈哈哈哈~我早就知道啦XDDDD
我明白你要什么
我什么都明白的
GO AHEAD
我不在乎了
啦啦啦啦~~
明天
继续加油！！
我会努力做得更好一些XDD
高考成绩一出来
到时候我自己选国家啊
我自己选我的大学
不要你来打扰我YOU KNOW!
好 就这样！
我会再加油XDD
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